6AM and I am on my way to the gym with Devansh, I was piecing a thought together. I was wondering how should I live my life? My head was looking at the deep black street. I love that street, probably one of the best streets I've ever seen in my life, fully covered with yellow flowers dropping from hundreds of the trees planted on both the sides. A sharp ninety-degrees turn comes to both my way and to my thoughts when the street gets over I see no tree but a deep blue sky. My eyes quickly see the orange shade cloudy region on the right. half of the sky. At first it looks like there are gazillion small clouds all connected to each other like small pieces of a big puzzle. I immediately realized the answer to my thoughts, my question of how should I approach my life now had an answer. Just like the big great sky that has gazillion small clouds all connected to each other forming a pleasing view to eyes, I should have hundreds of thousands of small memories all connected to form one big life. Memories that tell stories, stories about people around me, people who become part of my life at different stages, stages that I sail through like a sailor in an ocean, ocean full of low and high tides, tides that challenge me, challenge of fighting for life.
Before today, I was all in for making shit amount of money, I was aiming for becoming a trillionaire, the richest person in the world. I always thought when I'll be rich I will be able to live like a king, I will be able to rule the world. There's nothing wrong about this, but I think I forgot to question myself "why can't I be the king today? what's stopping me from living like a king today?". Does money give you the confidence to live like a king? Does money gives you a title that you are a king now?
In the gym, I am able to deadlift 115kgs while other guys who started even months before me still can't do this, surprisingly my muscle mass is only 28kgs but still I push myself so hard for 80kgs squats, why was I able to gain so much strength in only 55 days of the gym. There was no one who told me that I couldn't do this. I didn't wait to become the strongest version of myself first then try to lift the heaviest weight I could, I didn't happen that way, the reverse happened, I believe that I am the strongest version today and then I went for the heaviest weight and I was able to lift it.
As said by Osho in his Ashtavakra Mahagita, "God comes to you instantly, they don't wait till you achieve something. If you want to meet the great God you don't have to wait till you walk down a hard path and achieve something great, God comes to you the moment you want him", If I want to feel powerful like a billionaire, I don't have to wait until I become one, I must accept that I am billionaire, live like one. Nothing should come my way to live like a billionaire. Doesn't matter the digits in my account, God will take care of it. I don't want to live in a lacking zone, I want to live with the abundance mindset.
How should I live my life then?
I want to collect a gazillion small exciting stories about the things that matter to me. When I think through I clearly know that its not the money target that makes me happy its the process of dealing with money be it as small as negotiating my way through a 10 Rs discount, money dealings actually make me so happy, I don't think the amount of money does. I still remember the day I was negotiating my salary I was so happy that day that I won the negotiation and I don't remember a day where I felt happy when the money actually got credited to my account. Money dealings is actually my thing, I must not bow down to chase a crazy money target like becoming a billionaire by 2030 (It was my goal until today lol), I wanted to achieve this just like I achieved my goal to become a millionaire y 2026 but I would aggressively push myself to do money dealings instead. I will create new opportunities to do money dealings and will live through those.
More importantly I will never wait for anything to happen to do something or take any action, If I deeply wanna do something I'll just do with whatever the resources available without waiting for anything. I will start living like a king from today only, attitude is everything, in my mind if I have any self doubts then it's harmful for my growth, attitude is everything. I should feel like the greatest, the unstoppable from today only and act / live like that. I am powerful today only.
I think achieving anything is easy, specially money, there are close to infinite ways of becoming a billionaire but the problem comes when we obsess more over achieving the goal rather than doing things with excitement that too everyday, if there's no fun in the journey of becoming a billionaire then it's not worth it, if you feel pain you better be doing something else. Of-course there will be painful days but the reason will never be because of external factors, it won't be because entrepreneurship is tough but it'll be because of the simple fact that our human body can't be in the same state every day, we have hormones that fluctuate every second to control our behavior. Simply put, If I am a sad entrepreneur today then it doesn't mean it's because of my startup, a part of it can be but highly likely I would be sad If I were something else as well. So even if I have a billion dollars today I might be sad, not because something is troubling me but highly likely my body is in that state right now. It's all the mind games, so the best solution to deal with these uncontrollable things is to become an observer and watch yourself from a distance. Keep calm and live like a king.
Just realized that I should unattached myself from the product and should take a back seat to drive what I love the most that is sales, I love selling stuff that's the only monkey dealing equation I know. I love sales, I love to sell things, I'll do that.